I need my space, or do I??

Today has been spent with my son, Kaydn Rye. Well, nearly everyday is spent with Kaydn Rye, but today has been fully devoted to him. Most days are spent with me trying to work, make phone calls and run my business with Kaydn sitting on the floor of my office staring at me for most of the day. He'll say, "I'm a leech!" He requires human contact almost every moment of every day - it is key to his survival - so today I decided to spend the day fulfilling his need for close human contact.

I then began thinking about how different the two of us are. I, like most people, will take advantage of online services, use an ATM, or send an email before I actually pick up the phone or venture out into the actual world where I might encounter some human contact.

The most interesting thing about this phenomenon is how much energy we will spend trying to run errands and manage our lives all while trying to avoid physical contact with other humans.
One of the reasons I despised my work as a reporter, before I started my business, is because of all the human contact it required everyday. It was so tremendously draining! On top of that, the entire newsroom was an open forum where we all had desks in the middle of the room. I begged and begged for a cubicle!!

Now, I of course love connecting with my son but for some reason feel guilty when I do. I feel like the world is screaming at me to accomplish something great and mysterious, something that humanity has been waiting for since the beginning of time, the something that will bring me the glory the world has always longed to give but just never could in the midst of all my failures and misdirection.

Despite the guilt that plagues me, everyday that I take a little, or a lot of, time off to pour into Kaydn Rye's life, I always feel I've made a decision that I will never regret and will continue to see a return on for all eternity.

I've heard it said that the moments in which we truly live are those in which we act not for the glory that the world has to offer but when we act in the spirit of love for another. If this is true, and I know that it is, then Kaydn Rye is the greatest thing that will become of my life. No matter if a achieve my dreams.... even if I write a bestseller, back pack Europe, or parachute out of a plane, those will be done out of love for adventure and accomplishment. But Kaydn, he has sent me on a journey that exists because of the pure love of the glimmer of hope in his eyes and the dimple that comes from his mesmerizing smile.